Her Pandora’s Box

Dear Sugarplum Fairy,

Call me stupid if you must but this much is enough- of pretending that i am alright just the way i am. You call it obsession, while i, a mere perception of ‘comfort’. And as above, you may call me an idiot for i have no care. We are all unique and this is me in your face, frank and fat. Cheers to them, those who can live with it. I am envious but pardon me, its quite an ordeal to be someone else. Hopefully, this will change one fine day. But no, not today nor tomorrow and the weeks ahead. I am too awkward in this flesh and I sure don’t want to hear your talks about beauty beyond skin deep because i, for one, believe in it just as blood to religion- which unfortunately equates to my being equivalent of a mad cow and no less. Just leave me be darlings and please, put the goddamn food away.

This is for me because i need it.

By any means necessary.

So please leave me alone. I thank you in advance.

Dear Sugarplum Fairy,

Remnants of the office,

   

My morning walks to work/ the office/ the not-very-rad desk/ my usual cuppa and my Kokeshi from Yuki/ more me-ish stuff/ people i love, splashed all over my desk: Yas, Yuki & Maarten, the girls and papa. I don’t have Sam, mom and my brother up on the board but they’re not to be excluded.

Lastly, of course, my inspiration board. It’s got Yuki’s sakura patch for me from Japan, Audrey’s ‘You Are Beautiful’ sticker for Valentine’s Day two years ago and just about everything i love. Or everyone, rather?

On my last day at work, i sent an informal email with small shoutouts to everyone, i think special people deserve special mention but whether it was appropriate or not, i couldn’t be very bothered. I was showered with gifts, wishes, wise words and hugs. Thank you, I am touched beyond words.

I’ll miss that place.

Dear Sugarplum Fairy,

Won’t update right now, probably on the morrow. Meanwhile, look what we (me + salina) made this afternoon! My favourite chinese dish, Sze Chuan Chicken.

Time in the office is over and today is a fruitful day at home made of,

fasting (which i love)/outstanding documents for post/trip to the supermart for soymilk & some groceries/a to-do list for the next two weeks/outdated pictures uploaded/5 x prayers/tried two new recipes/checked out a couple of bands/evening cafe quiet time with Yas.

It’s been perfect, thank you.

Squeezed for time. Happy fasting/ramadhan my muslim friends!